Painful prayer

Ok...deep breath...the news today was not what I was hoping for, and is still not any sort of definitive answer.

We learned that of the 5 or 6 families with my agency who are in this same situation, at least some of those children have already been matched with Italian families and will not be available for adoption through our agency. Problem is, we still don't know which children those are. The Italian agency is supposed to be sending a list next week of the children who have been matched with Italian families, and which ones may still be available to be adopted through my agency. So the next few days are destined to be filled with more waiting, more faith-building, more trust-testing.

Strangely, I'm far more at peace now than I was when I originally learned about the involvement of this Italian agency back at the beginning of January. I hope this means that the Lord has helped me grow and mature in Him over the past month. It's certainly been a stretching time.

For now, I desperately hope that little "A" is not on the list of children who have been chosen by Italian families and that I am able to continue her adoption and bring her home. But that's not what I'm praying for. This journey began last June, when I saw her face on the waiting children list and began to pray that God would put her in the family He had for her. I will continue to pray that over her now, and I invite you to join me in this.

I am also asking the Lord that this period of waiting in limbo come to an end by next Friday, not just for me, but for all the families involved. I believe this roadblock has lasted long enough. It is time for our children to come home, regardless of whether their faces are the ones we have grown to love over the last several months or new ones that we will grow to love as we continue on this journey.

Thank you all for your faithful prayers with me throughout this journey.